After several years on the Ascension Path, I have come to realize that ascending doesn’t come without a price. Achieving a higher level of consciousness isn’t accomplished by osmosis; it requires commitment, diligence and sacrifice. Still, I feel the rewards of ascension far outweigh the pain of getting there. There have been times when I questioned my sanity as I walked this path, having to confront my fears at every turn. I have lost many friends, walked away from lucrative business deals and suffered the heartache of intense loneliness yet none of those compared to the devastation I felt by losing my health. I have always believed that as long as I had my health, I could handle anything.
Unfortunately, we were not left a manual on how to ascend, detailing the pros and cons and explaining the steps. As a result, many of us, myself included, find ourselves stunned and confused by the degree of physical and emotional pain we experience in ascension, not understanding how or why it is a part of the process, nor how to regain our health so that we can keep going forward. This article is my attempt to provide answers as to why our health is affected during ascension along with some solutions for regaining our health.
I consciously began the ascension process in early 1996. At that time I asked my guides to, “help me regain my abilities to hear, see and feel on other dimensions like I used to.” Within hours my request was granted and I began the first of many emotional clearings necessary to achieve my goal. What I mean by emotional clearing is clearing out the old, stuck lower frequency emotions such as anger, rage, shame, guilt, regret, remorse and bitterness that are part of ancient memories and wounds. These traumas are held together in layered blocks that resemble an onion. Also included in these blocks are the beliefs and behavior patterns from which the traumas were created. As we clear each layer of these blocks from the emotional body, the physical body then releases its equivalent of that layer. We call this process, Emotional Clearing.
Ascension as I understand it is about moving one’s state of consciousness from one reality to another. Since a reality is a dimension what we are undertaking is, in essence, a dimensional shift. To make this shift one must change one’s way of thinking and being. Bringing this back to the personal level, in order to shift my thinking and ways of being, I must become aware of what beliefs and behaviors are out of balance and take appropriate steps to balance them. As I have learned, we won’t be doing this totally alone. The Soul/Higher Self and the Inner Child work with us as partners in this process. They bring our fears, beliefs and patterns to the surface through events that trigger them into our awareness so that we can consciously acknowledge and clear them. By repeating this process over and over we clear our emotional bodies of the long held traumas, beliefs, and fears. As I mentioned earlier, once the emotional body dumps, the physical body then dumps its equivalent of that block. All this happens simultaneously with each clearing. Oh, and along with these benefits, the clearing recodes our DNA so it can hold more light thus changing it to a crystalline state. Our DNA sustains our new state of consciousness.
So emotional clearing is the process we go through to ascend. At the time I began back in 1996 I had no idea that emotional clearing would be required to ascend. I had not even heard of the process before I began to experience it. Perhaps that was a good thing because had I known what it would take, I might not have begun. During those six years I experienced many of the classic ascension symptoms. These include persistent fatigue, migraine headaches, muscle and joint pain, stiff neck and shoulders, rapid weight gain, memory loss, difficulties with sleep and concentration (foggy headedness), sore throat, blurred vision, irritable bowels and bladder, low-grade fevers and depression. Through the hundreds of comments I received from readers of my ascension articles, I learned that others were experiencing part or all of the same symptoms in varying degrees and combinations as myself. Though I was surprised, I was also comforted by the fact that I wasn’t alone in my experiences.
I began to wonder if there was a term for these symptoms and started research to find out why we were paying such a high price for ascension. I turned up two recently discovered illnesses. They are called Fibromyalgia (FM) and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS) … and they exactly matched the symptoms of ascension! And, both had only been “discovered” in the last 10 years. I discovered that the endocrine system not only gives you your psychic abilities, it also regulates the production of hormones in your system and hormones regulate just about every function in your body including your emotions, weight, body temperature, libido, mental acuity, concentration, sight, etc. Hormones tell the other cells of the body what to do. If some hormones are deficient, the cells that rely on them don’t function properly.
Based on this information, I began to wonder if emotional clearing was in someway connected to FM and CFS. During emotional clearing the endocrine glands (hypothalamus, pituitary, pineal, adrenals and gonads) are greatly stressed through the triggering of deep-seated fears and repressed memories. When we experience emotional or physical stress our hormone production becomes erratic. When this occurs on a continuous basis as with emotional clearing, some hormones are nearly wiped out and others are over produced and we experience the corresponding symptoms, i.e., weight gain, aching joints and muscles, short-term memory loss, persistent fatigue, low-grade fevers, word searching, etc. In other words we develop FM and/or CFS or develop the same symptoms.
Personally, I found it hard to accept that I would develop these illnesses since I was clearing out the old energies and integrating the fears that I believed caused dis-eases (I had long ago come to the conclusion that the root of physical dis-ease lay in the emotional body). I believed correctly or incorrectly that spiritual people were happier and healthier than non-spiritual people therefore, since I was becoming more spiritual, I should experience greater health and happiness. It made me question whether I was really becoming more spiritual or not. I apparently overlooked the fact that when one seeks to move from one state to another, there is a period of imbalance, chaos and adjustment before a new state of balance is achieved.
Though this was a frightening and disheartening discovery, at the same time, it was a relief to finally understand what was happening to me. I had felt out of control for so long by the debilitating nature of these symptoms. Now, with finally understanding the big picture of the Ascension Process, I felt in control of my life again. So how does it happen? How does emotional clearing lead to FM or CFS? And more importantly, what can be done to heal our bodies of these illnesses?
Why do some of us get CFS and/or FM and what’s the Value?
Because not everyone who goes through emotional clearing and ascension will develop FM or CFS, it’s my belief that those who do attract these illnesses do so because they need the kind of assistance these illnesses provide. Let me explain.
A couple of years ago, my guides informed me that there would be new viruses upon the planet that would be incurable by 3D methods because they were designed for a higher purpose. They informed me that these viruses were created to literally burn patterns out of the DNA. Now, there is a scientific law called the “Law of Dissipating Structures” which states that before a new structure can be established the old one must dissipate or dissolve. It is my belief that behavior patterns are genetically encoded in our DNA. They are passed down from generation to generation and originally created by our belief systems.
If CFS and FM are those viruses, then they could assist people with this pattern by burning it out of their DNA. So those who attract CFS or FM do so to obtain the assistance they need to clear stubborn, deeply entrenched patterns in their DNA. Going further, since these viruses are neuromuscularly related (they attack the muscles), they force you to slow down, take stock of your life and change your beliefs about yourself and what is really important. They force you to change your priorities, thus giving you the help you need to bring your life into balance. For example, I was one of those people who defined myself by what I did for a living. I also had a deep need to accomplish along with a fear of asking for help. Because of these viruses, I was forced to reevaluate my belief of defining myself by my career as I moved from a very acceptable 3D career into psychic/intuitive counseling. I could no longer expend the energy working in a field that I had lost my passion for long ago.
Because of the debilitating fatigue, I couldn’t accomplish much each day and my self-worth and self-esteem plummeted to an all-time low. This forced me to reevaluate my beliefs around accomplishment and why I needed it so much. Because I could not work as much, I wasn’t bringing in the amount of money I needed to pay the bills. This forced me to confront my fears about asking for help. I learned that my symptoms were exacerbated by anxiety when I became fearful about not having the money needed to pay the bills. I learned to stay open and allow my guides to assist me and as I did this, the money came each month.
I now realize that without these viruses I would not have changed my deeply entrenched beliefs and patterns because I wouldn’t have unless I was forced to do so. So perhaps CFS and FM were my saving grace. Perhaps they are the “big guns” some of us call in to help us clear patterns that would otherwise block us from ascending.
Over the years I have tried many things to alleviate my symptoms including, cutting out sugar, wheat and dairy products in my diet, eating organic foods, salt baths, Essential Oils, Bach Flower Essences, massage, chiropractic, and yoga. All of them helped but none of them could give me back my life.
It wasn’t until my emergency hysterectomy that I discovered a therapy that alleviated the majority my symptoms and gave me back my life. It is called Natural Hormone Replacement Therapy (NHRT). Now, I’m not talking about synthetic hormones made from the urine of mares, I am talking about natural, plant-based hormones. In laymen’s terms, NHRT supplements the hormones in our body, giving our endocrine system time to regulate itself and begin producing the right amounts and levels of hormones.
I have been taking natural hormones for 9 months now and have experienced an 85% improvement in my FM and CFS symptoms. For example, I can exercise 40 minutes 4 days a week now. Before, I would try to exercise but each time I would pull a muscle or something else would happen to prohibit my continuing the exercise. I tried dieting and no matter how much I dieted or tried to exercise, the weight would not come off! I have lost several inches, dropping from a size 12 to a size 8 on my way back to a size 6. What a relief!
Bowel movements are back to normal most of the time now and I have a lot more energy. I can remember things better now because my short-term memory is returning. I only experience symptom flare-ups when I overexert myself or become anxious and fearful.
My husband Jonathan has been on NHRT for 5 months and has experienced about a 15% improvement in his symptoms, not as dramatic an improvement as mine. I have noticed a decrease in his chronic depression from 6 out of every 7 days to 2 out of every 7 days. When you live with someone who is chronically depressed this is tremendous improvement. I have noticed that he doesn’t have the anxiety attacks as often as before and he has a bit more energy. Considering that he was diagnosed with CFS in 1996 and has gone 5 years without treatment, this is a great improvement.
Another godsend was Neuro Cranial Restructuring (NCR). NCR has a good track record of eliminating illnesses including FM and CFS because both are neuromuscular related and because it works on the sphenoid bone, the pivotal bone in the body. Your head sits upon your neck balanced on this bone like a bowling ball balanced on a pool stick. When this bone is out of alignment it causes all the other bones in the body to shift/misalign in order to stabilize your head.
After only 4 treatments I experienced an increase in mental clarity, and a pronounced decrease in neck/upper back pain and muscle spasms. My neck was straighter and I attained significantly more flexibility in my lower and middle back because it straightened my spine a bit. I have had mild scoliosis (curvature of the spine) since birth. I’ve also had several whiplashes. The NCR treatments helped move my head back into alignment on my neck and took the pressure off my muscles so that bones could support my head instead of my muscles, allowing my spine to begin unwinding. I also noticed things were visually lighter. It was like coming out of the shadows into the sunlight. Many NCR patients report these kinds of improvements. I plan to continue these treatments to complete the straightening of my spine and repair the damage caused by whiplash.
Jonathan also had 4 treatments and his sleep apnea decreased by 85%. He is not able to verify this since he doesn’t hear himself gasping for breath at night, but I do. His breathing is much deeper. I have kept a record of his emotional state since the NCR treatments and have noticed that he is in a relatively good mood 3 out of every 5 days. Before the NCR it was 1 out of every 5 days.
It appears that we attract solutions to our symptoms and are guided to those practitioners and therapies that complete the healing process as we clear the associating beliefs and patterns. So there is relief for our ascension symptoms. I am not saying these are the only therapies that will work and everyone will experience different levels of relief if they use them, but they are two that worked well for me.
In closing, it is my hope that everyone who reads this article will understand that physical symptoms are part of the process of emotional clearing and ascension. To think we can clear and clean our emotional and physical bodies without experiencing pain and discomfort is unrealistic. But our symptoms are by no means perpetual and based on my experience and research, can be alleviated, and will eventually be eliminated as we complete ascension.
Below are links to sites for information on FM, CFS, NHRT and NCR. And there are many more on the Internet as well as some very good books on these subjects.
Written March 22, 2002
Fibromyalgia Network: http://www.fmnetnews.com/
USA Fibromyalgia Association: http://www.w2.com/fibro1.html
Fibromyalgia and Chronic Myofascial Pain Syndrome: http://www.sover.net/~devstar/
Chronic Fatigue Syndrome Sites
CFS Recovery: http://www.cfs-recovery.org/
Natural Hormone Replacement Therapy Sites
What is a natural hormone?: http://www.johnleemd.com/johnleemd/exfromdrlees.html
Neuro Cranial Restructuring Sites
NeuroCranial Restructuring – http://www.naturalhorizonswellness.com/johnson2.htm