Authors note: This article will be more meaningful if you’ve read Suicide Is Not an Option first. It was toward the end of March 2005 and I was still living in my friend Patricia’s place. The two of us were struggling with our own issues, and each other, as we mirrored our fears back to
More ...The whole reason that I wrote this lengthy article was actually unknown to me at the time that I started the writing and even, to some degree, throughout the days that I was writing it. One of the reasons, I can now say in retrospect, was for me to get clear on what had occurred
More ...Some Background … When I left Kansas City on January 8, 2005, I did so with a great amount of trepidation enhanced by doubt. I was at the same time sure that it was the right thing to do. Perhaps that was because from a 3D point of view it was nuts while from a
More ...Author’s note: This article will be easier to follow if you first read Walking in the Dark. Which came first, depression or this longing to just die and get out of this place? Hard to say, as both have been with me as long as I can remember. But before I get into all that
More ...Walking near the water along a wide, white sandy beach in Huntington Beach, California. I’m in no hurry with no place to go or any need to be anywhere. It’s where I have found myself each and every morning for weeks. I was born and raised in California … it’s my home and I love
More ...With passionless eyes we move through our days with fog in our brains and bodies aching. We are walking ghosts of our former selves ever tired and listless, ever in pain. If you are a sufferer of Chronic Fatigue [1] or Fibromyalgia [2], you’ll easily relate to the passage above. I relate to it too.
More ...After several years on the Ascension Path, I have come to realize that ascending doesn’t come without a price. Achieving a higher level of consciousness isn’t accomplished by osmosis; it requires commitment, diligence and sacrifice. Still, I feel the rewards of ascension far outweigh the pain of getting there. There have been times when I
More ...It’s 7:00 am and I am finally resting comfortably after 3 shots of pain medication. Jonathan sits beside me holding my hand, his eyes bloodshot from lack of sleep and stress. We are in the emergency room at St. Luke’s Hospital in Kansas City. I chose this hospital because it was close to home and
More ...So what is the value of being overweight? That was a question for which I only recently found the answer. Like so many of you, I have struggled to see my body as beautiful. I only recently stopped cringing when those bathing suit magazines come in the mail showing men and women with their firm,
More ...Depression as a topic has taken up countless pages of print, countless hours of research and discussion, and countless hours of treatment and diagnosis. In recent years it has received much media attention and has been attacked by an onslaught of new drugs. But until a higher perspective is introduced, no real solution will be
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