Author: Jelaila

Physical Stability

Pros

I find that the greatest value in walking the ascension path is being able to take control of your physical health and heal yourself. I have cured myself of Carpal Tunnel Syndrome but still battle with Fibromyalgia due to my caretaking (enabling and rescuing) behaviors. Though I still get massages, use chiropractors, and sometimes have Reike treatments, I know that my true and complete healing is in my hands. I know that all my dis-ease is rooted in my emotions and fears. This is empowering and freeing in a sense because I know that I no longer have to depend on some doctor/god. It gives me a feeling of equality that has been missing in my life with medical doctors. I used to hold them in contempt because I felt they had something (the power to heal) that I didn’t. Now I see them in a different light. I will still go to them for broken bones and things that they can help me with that I do not have the expertise to treat for myself, but that is all. And I now appreciate and value them as partners in my health instead of as gods who used to do it all for me.

Cons

Before I began this ascension path, my body was in pretty good shape. You could say that I have been blessed with good health and a resilient and strong body. But since that choice was made, I have suffered from acute Fibromyalgia and Carpal Tunnel Syndrome among other things. It is like my body fell apart once I decided to go for the goal of ascension.

And there are times when I am sorely tempted to go to someone else to heal me, but each time I have that desire, I remember that it will no longer work for me and will only prolong my pain and make my lessons harder. When the pain of aching joints, muscles and migraine headaches get to me, I long for something to eradicate the pain.

When I chose to walk the ascension path, within that decision, unbeknownst to me at the time, was also the choice to take full responsibility for healing myself. It took me a long time and a lot of pain to realize that. Now I know that I can stop the pain when I finally have had enough and ask my soul to show me the way to release the pattern and the physical pain. This is how I cured the Carpal Tunnel Syndrome.

I believe that this choice is also the reason why so many healers are no longer able to do the type of healing work that they used to do. Those involved in taking out implants, healing viruses, etc. seem to be experiencing headaches and illness after treating a patient. They are having to make changes in their work—changes that allow the patient to heal themselves after being taught by the healer how to do it. Healing techniques are no longer proprietary. They are to be taught by healer-teachers to the patient so that the patient can heal themselves. This, I understand, is the way it is done in the higher realms. It is self-empowering.

Weight Loss/Weight Gain is another one of the challenges that face us during the ascension process. To say that we will only gain or only loose it is a fallacy. I have found that once we make the choice to clear our emotional baggage and ascend, our Egos/inner children go into panic and begin to add weight to our bodies as protection again the fears that we have, and up to that point, been unable to integrate. As a result, I have seen myself gain 5 to 10 lb. in less than a month and then loose that weight only weeks later. I have also found that my dietary habits have absolutely nothing to do with my weight. It all depends on my emotional state, the lessons being brought forward and the fears up to be integrated. What I have found over the last 4 years of my ascension journey is that I will lose the weight once I integrate the fear, create new personal boundaries and agreements to protect my inner child and modify my behavior based on those new boundaries and agreements. I know for a fact that what I eat has nothing to do with it so I eat what I like and forget about dieting and restriction. Ascension is difficult enough without adding dieting to the equation.

Known Pitfalls

As I mentioned earlier, I know that I can cure myself of any dis-ease since I am aware that all dis-ease is rooted in my behavior patterns and their corresponding fears and emotions. But the biggest pitfall in healing the body during ascension is the very reason that I haven’t completely cured myself of Fibromyalgia.

The behavior patterns that cause dis-ease are in most cases very addictive and have value. Take for example the pattern that causes Fibromyalgia. Caretaking provides me with a sense of personal control and emotional safety. I know from experience that as long as I focus my energy on taking care of the emotional and physical needs of others, I will be loved and accepted. Now this isn’t logical as evidenced by the anger and passive/aggressive backlash I receive from those I caretake, but initially when I am solving their problems for them, they act like they appreciate it and that is good enough for me … initially. But it’s like the old saying “It may be hell but it’s home.” That’s the way I feel about my current dysfunctional patterns, they may cause me pain but at least it is pain with which I am familiar. To make the choice to incur new and different pain and experiences by changing my patterns is not something that I and my inner child are ready to take on. So we live with the present set of circumstances and this is the biggest pitfall to healing ourselves.

Financial Stability

Pros

Finances improve once you reach the level of consciousness where you are at peace with allowing your Soul to provide for you and you have the knowing that you placed financial prosperity as one of your rewards on your Life Blueprint. You are also aware that you will be provided for until you reach that level of trust in yourself and all present issues of lack are just opportunities that enable you to see the many areas in which this fear about money impacts your life. My husband and I have experienced many difficult and frightening periods of financial instability during this ascension process.

We know all about taking a calculator to the grocery store and adding up the items we put in the cart to make sure we have enough money. We have experienced the embarrassment of having to put things back in the checkout line with other people watching because we didn’t have the money. And this is just one of the many things we have experienced. But now, that seems to have changed. The money is coming, not as plentiful as we would like, but at least it is what we need to pay the bills and even invest in new computer equipment for the company. We have finally reached the level where were are okay spending large sums money at the beginning of the month knowing that the bills will get paid at the end of month. We have learned to do what Wayne Dyer, the author of You’ll See It When You Believe It calls “living on purpose.”

There have been many times in the past, before I began the ascension process, that I did this very thing. I called it “winging it on faith”, but it was never done with the consciousness and knowingness that it would work. That is the biggest difference as far as I am concerned.

Cons

Even though my husband and I have mostly lived a life of plenty, the biggest negative for me was the fear of losing my home, not being able to buy clothes for my child, or food for the table. It was the sleepless nights when I racked my mind trying to find a way to pay the bills. It was the disheartening feeling when I wanted to do something but the money was not there to do it. It was the fear that gripped my stomach as I waited for my credit card to clear at the check out, and the red-face embarrassment when it didn’t. Personally, I detest these money problems and no matter how much I try to tell myself they are necessary and good for my spiritual growth, I still sometimes get down and depressed. Even today, when the money is starting to be a little more abundant, I am still nagged by these feelings. Guess it will take a while and a lot more months of bills paid on time for me to get beyond them. I still don’t trust that the money will continue to flow because I know I still have levels of growth to attain in this area.

Keep in mind, too, that the monetary system in place on this planet is based on fear. We are all in the process of integrating this fear and thereby changing the systems as we do so.

Known Pitfalls

The biggest pitfall I know of is the feeling of hopelessness attached to the thought that the financial struggle will never end, that there will never be enough money and that I will never be able to figure out how to get out of my own way long enough to allow the money to flow. I know this isn’t true but it still feels that way. I find that I have to go off by myself and mentally and emotionally process through these feelings using the Formula of Compassion. When I do this, I eventually find my balance again and often times I have a windfall of cash afterwards because I have expressed and cleared and transmuted another layer of this old way of thinking. I encourage you to give it a try.

I know that my money issues are caused by my choice to block prosperity due to some deep-seated fear. At first I thought the fear was the fear of success but that is only a small part of what blocks me. The truth for me is that I fear that if I become successful I will have to give up my privacy and furthermore, that I won’t be able to fulfill everyone’s needs well enough to keep their acceptance and approval. I am working on this and since the money is flowing, perhaps I have gained some ground. Who knows? Only time will tell.

Believing that “if it is spiritual it should be free” is another of the big pitfalls that plague not only those on the ascension path but also the spiritual community as a whole. Only a few people that I have met have figured out that the above concept about money and spirituality is a scam perpetrated on the world by organized religion, e.g., “filthy rich.” And as a result, those who were once financially empowered are now disempowered because they believe they must give away their work instead of charging the money that would enable them to keep going. I have seen many good spiritual magazines, schools and other projects fail because of this philosophy. It’s really sad.

The final big pitfall is one that I have had to struggle with more than once. This pitfall is the idea that bankruptcy is wrong and should never be used. When I experienced my first bankruptcy at the age of 30, I thought I could never hold my head up in public again. I was ashamed and felt so guilty. And even though my bankruptcy was due to a series of synchronicities that I could only call “bad luck” at the time, I still felt embarrassed and ashamed.

Like so many other, I was taught that if I went bankrupt, I would no not be able to financially recover afterwards. My financial future was doomed. I believed that I would no longer be able to buy a car, a house, have a credit card or function in society anymore. This, I have discovered through experience is just not true.

First, the taboo around bankruptcy was created by the government systems that want to keep you in their control through money. The more you owe, the more they control you. Bankruptcy is the way out and they know it. Therefore, they have taught you not to take that out.

Secondly, when I declared bankruptcy it wasn’t more that two months before I began receiving offers from credit card companies, car dealerships, and home financing companies. At first I was shocked. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing! After some investigation, I discovered that there is a whole industry developed just for bankruptcy because there are so many people declaring bankruptcy.

So if you are facing this financial situation, don’t sweat it. You will recover and probably faster than you think. Do some investigation like I did. You will find it to be all a game of electronic numbers moving between banks. If your bankruptcy is due to circumstances like a business failure, extended illness or supporting your spiritual work, and not because you intentionally went out and charged up your cards for ego related items, you have nothing to feel bad about.

From a higher dimensional perspective, bankruptcy is a lesson in learning to let go of any ego attachments to financial status, and any associated image i.e., credit rating. Basing your self-worth on your credit rating is just as empty as basing it on your looks, the size of your home, where you live, or family breeding, etc. So let it go and get on with your life. Many Lightworkers will go through the lesson of bankruptcy to clear away ego attachments like the ones mentioned above. And for some of us, it may have to be more than once.

Relationships

Pros

Relationships become stronger, more peaceful and more emotionally satisfying due to the increased level of trust that is created by being able to be real and speak your truth. After years of acquiring and losing friends, I have finally learned that I can actually have friends with whom I can cuss, fuss, fight and still be loved. We have been through many confrontations and because we all use the higher dimensional tools, we are able to see the aspect of ourselves the other person in showing us and release one another from blame. Once this occurs, we find we have reached a new level of trust and that is very satisfying.

Cons

Having relationships end because the other person is not aware of higher dimensional understanding and/or is not on the ascension path is heartbreaking. To me, the hardest relationships to lose are the ones with spiritual people who get caught up in blame and cannot see the mirror or are not willing to accept responsibility for their actions. For some reason, I feel they should know better because they are spiritual, but that is not necessarily logical.

Known Pitfalls

Learning when to let go of a relationship and “hold on to nothing” because it is just not capable of being balanced right now, and doing so without guilt or blaming of oneself or the other person is still a real challenge for me. It is an area where I need considerable growth and understanding. I have yet to get beyond being angry when I am rejected.

Spiritual Challenges

Spiritual challenges is a catchall for the things that I want to share, but don’t necessarily fit into the above categories. They are the challenges that many, if not all of us, have faced at one time or another on the ascension path.

Wanting to go too fast…

I recently met a client that reminded me of myself just a few short years ago. When I urged him to slow down and walk instead of running, he became very disappointed. He didn’t see any reason or value in slowing down. He wanted to recode his DNA and ascend as quickly as possible.

When I pointed out to him that his many physical problems (broken bones, deep cuts) as well as the extreme obstacles that he had experienced were signals that he needed to slow down, he just shook his head in disbelief. I understand all too well how he felt. Having to slow down and take baby steps triggered intense anger and fear inside of me at one time. But what I have come to see after many painful experiences is that our bodies can only go so fast due to their density and when we get out of step with the pace that supports them we suffer. Broken bones, car accidents, hitting our legs on furniture, walking into walls, are obvious signals that we need to slow down, and take ascension one step at a time. Trying to go too fast will not get us there any faster. We will still arrive exactly when we are supposed to arrive. When we take baby steps, we avoid a lot of pain and the burnout that many feel because of that pain. When we take baby steps, we empower ourselves to ascend with grace and greater ease.

Frustration about the Mission…

Many of those on the spiritual path feel that they have missions to complete in service to humanity. I have found from my own experience that not knowing what the mission is, or better yet, not realizing that I am already fulfilling it in part, is one of the greatest frustrations I have ever known. It triggers my feelings of inadequacy and unworthiness, and makes me feel that I am not doing the job I came here to do.

Now I understand that there is a period of training that must be completed before we begin the actual work of our mission and this period cannot be hurried or shortened in any way. I have hit many walls in trying to do so.

The other thing that I have learned about our missions is that our wanting to know all the details of what we will be doing is detrimental to our success. When I first asked many years ago in a channeling session, Devin, my guide, informed me that all would be revealed in time. I, being the mental person that I was at the time, took that as his controlling me by withholding information. We got into an argument as I accused him of this. His reply was, and I quote, “If I was to inform you of all that you will be doing, you would immediately say, ‘I can’t do that, I don’t know how,’ and get into fear about it. That, dearest one, would place an unnecessary block in your path that would take more time to remove. Now do you really want that?” I got the point.

So what I am saying here to all of you who are fretting over the fact that you don’t know what you are to do and fear that you may miss it when the time arrives because you don’t recognize it, you will not miss it. When the training period is over, your work will be launched and the people, opportunities and the money will all be there to start it. It will be a flow.

Losing touch with spirit guides…

During the journey to ascension there will be many times that your guides will seem to disappear. In actuality they are still there, they are just standing back to see what you will do with the information and training you have already been given. These periods of silence can be very disconcerting and lonely, but I assure you that your guides are still very close by. I find that these periods usually coincide with intense lessons and what I call “Dark Nights of the Soul.”

You may get angry with your guides because you feel they have abandoned you in your greatest time of need but they know that you not only arranged to be alone, you asked them not to step in. All this was done before you were born. You wanted to see if you could stand on your own two feet and integrate the fears coming forward without assistance. I assure you, your guides suffer right along with you and many times have to bite their tongues to stay out of your way. Like a mother who has to consciously stop herself from trying to assist her toddler who is determined to walk, so your guides go through the same emotions. But remember, your Soul is still there to guide you. Your Soul is not bound by these prior arrangements so he/she will always be there to assist but not caretake (enable). Thus, self-empowerment becomes a lived reality.

Staying grounded…

This is one of the greatest challenges for many people on the spiritual path as well as the ascension path. Staying grounded requires our participation in 3D and many of us have a great disdain for such things. I will assure you that without grounding in 3D, the things we need to accomplish our missions will not come to us, i.e., money, food, shelter, etc. This is one of the secrets of the ascension path. We must learn how to create a balance between physically being in 3D while existing simultaneously in the other levels of multidimensionality.

One other thing, I have found that when I am not grounded, I appear to be invisible to others. This not only creates some of the rejection I mentioned earlier, it can be dangerous when driving because other drivers literally do not see your car.

Letting go of “out there”…

Hanging out on the astral plane, astral traveling and just downright existing in nirvana through prolonged meditation, while feeling extremely satisfying to us, is also a great detriment to our missions. As I mentioned before, we cannot complete what we came here to do if we are not heart-connected to the planet. If you are still allowing yourself to feel strong desires to be “out there” you will not be able to be fully “here.” You will not be present and on purpose.

At some point, you have to make a choice. Either choose to be here, complete your mission and enjoy the good things that 3D has to offer, or stay out there and continue to experience financial stress, difficult relationships, and all the other things that come with separation from your physical form and planet upon which you reside. You may also, of course, choose to abandon your mission and return home. Whatever you choose, be conscious and responsible rather than being a victim of longingness and homesickness

So I’ll let you in on a little secret because I’m a big caretaker (can’t stop myself), if you chose to become heart-connected to Earth, you will find that you can have both.

Getting from the mental into the emotional…

When I began this work, I was very mental. When my guides informed me of this, I thought they were off in the head. When I would go to them for meetings, I spent most of our session asking questions about earth, the universe, history, my past lives and a myriad of other things. They indulged for a while but then stopped answering my questions. Instead, they wanted me to focus on my emotional clearing and becoming more heart centered and less head centered. Now, several years later, I understand why. Having all the facts and knowledge about the worlds around us is not as important as knowing and loving ourselves.

I also found that if I did my internal work, re-established the relationship with my Soul and Ego and improved my psychic abilities, I would then be able to find those answers about the worlds right within myself, thus freeing my guides to do more important work.

I hope this article provides some answers and a more realistic view of the ascension path. I realize that it is rather long and involved. Actually, it turned out to be more that I had intended it to be when I began writing. And, of course, as I mentioned in the beginning, these are my perspectives on the ascension path and are based on my 4 years of experiences, so you are free to disregard them if they don’t fit for you.

Well, it looks like after all this writing that I have only scratched the surface in regards to the joys and challenges we experience on the ascension path. And I also realize that many topics I have written about need more in-depth discussion. If you have questions in these areas or wish me to expound on any of the topics, please feel free to contact me. I will put them on my list for upcoming articles. Until next time…

Warmest Regards,

Jelaila Starr

Let’s Get Real about Ascension! Part 1

Due to the length and scope of this article, Let’s Get Real about Ascension! will be presented in two parts.

Ascension … the word conjures up visions of bliss, joy, and enhanced psychic abilities along with unlimited prosperity. All this is true once you reach a certain level of consciousness, but the path to that level of joy and prosperity is anything but.

I have read many articles from different channels and teachers on the subject of ascension. Overall, they emphasize the positive benefits and outcome of ascension; they only lightly touch on the reality of the ascension path, hence the reason for my article. I want to be real with you about ascension.

I’ve been on the ascension path, (different from the spiritual path) for the past 4 years. And even though I am no expert on ascension, only being able to share in hindsight from my own experiences, I can certainly tell you what I and many others I talked to who walk the path with me are feeling and experiencing. I want you to know that many of the things that you are experiencing on this path, the emotional, physical, and mental highs and lows, are both normal and to be expected.

I have been using the Accelerating DNA Recoding Process along with the Multidimensional Keys of Compassion to complete my recoding process and eventual ascension. Though they are the tools given to me by my guides, I continue to use them only because they work. They are like computer software without any bugs. They work for me every time. I want the simplest, most uncomplicated, most direct way to ascension. Anything that doesn’t fit into that description will not hold my attention.

My experiences, though based on those tools and process, are still in most ways common to all. Just like all roller coasters are a little different from each other, there are still things they have in common.

I will be sharing some of the less than joyful aspects of the ascension process. My intention is not to frighten you from your goal but instead, to support you with the knowledge that you are not alone, you’re not crazy, and what you are experiencing is all part of the process.

There are many areas to discuss in regards to the ascension path. I will cover those I feel to be the most universal and discuss the highs, lows and known pitfalls in each. They are Mental, Emotional, Physical and Financial Stability along with Relationships. But before I begin to discuss these areas, I feel it is important to share some of the basic understandings regarding ascension so that as you read the following information, you will know what I am talking about. Of course, these basics come from my own experience of the process and do not necessarily reflect the understanding of other teachers.

Ascension

Ascension is a step-by-step, level-by-level process. We ascend by clearing our emotional blockages one layer at a time. As each layer is cleared, we attain a new level of consciousness and understanding. We become compassionate with ourselves, and others in the area we just cleared. And though at times we feel that we have gone backwards because the same issue has once again presented itself, we have in fact just brought forward another layer to be cleared.

We ascend in consciousness first with our bodies gradually transforming as we go. Each time we clear another layer and achieve compassion with the issue and people at hand, we change our DNA just a little more. Since our bodies are changing from a carbon based form to a crystalline based form, that means we emit a little more light—our cells consist of a little more light and less dense matter than before. It is anticipated that by the time we reach 2012, having gone through many years of emotional clearing, our bodies will be ready to move into a new frequency because they will resonate at that frequency. When enough people do this together it creates a new mass consciousness and reality. I am told it takes at least 144,000 people to accomplish this task and create the new reality. At that point we will have two realities or worlds—two earths. One will be 3D and the other will be 5D.

Clearing our emotional blockages means accessing old memories from our present and past lives, picking out the behavior pattern/patterns and the fear/fears that are at the root of that pattern, and then re-creating that fear in order to integrate it, along with a new behavior based on the absence of the former fear.

For example, an old memory was about suppressing our emotions to appear sweet and nice regardless of the circumstances. This behavior was created to deal with the fear of being rejected if we chose to express feelings of anger or rage—feelings not acceptable to those we loved. We would choose to recreate it by experiencing a negative situation such as our mate accusing us of some wrongdoing. In this situation we would have the choice to use a new behavior (the new behavior would be to express what we feel in the moment regardless of the outcome, i.e., speaking our truth) or continuing with our old behavior of suppressing our anger to keep peace.

As we clear our emotional blocks and our DNA recodes, there is also something else happening to us simultaneously. We are essentially rewiring our physical bodies. What this means is that we are developing new neural pathways in our brains that allow us to continue to use the new behavior patterns were are creating as part of our emotional clearing.

DNA recoding is about more than just changing the DNA, it is also about developing the internal structure to support the new crystalline wiring being created through the process. The compassion we are accumulating does not function in the old carbon based wiring of our body. Instead it functions in the new crystalline portion of our DNA and the new compassion based behaviors are accessed through our new neural pathways in our brains.

Each time we clear a lesson and acquire a new dose of compassion from that clearing, that new dose must reside somewhere in the body and it must reside somewhere that will enable us to utilize it for ascension purposes.

Compassion is the one thing that causes our DNA to change, and enables us to ascend. Compassion changes the frequency of our bodies. It is like helium. The more helium you have in a balloon, the higher it rises. The more compassion we can hold in our bodies through emotional clearing, the higher we ascend. Our consciousness increases, and our DNA changes to support that increase.

The compassion I refer to here is heart centered compassion not head centered or intellectual compassion. Heart centered compassion can only be attained by experiencing our fears and the associated pain and the choosing new behaviors to integrate the fear. There are those that say you can ascend without feeling pain. Based on my experience, that is not the case. Pain has a value—it acts as a catalyst for change. I believe that only through pain can we even begin to understand and have compassion for another—the kind of compassion that enables us to feel what they feel but not get caught up in it. I firmly believe that out of pain comes heart centered compassion. Anything else is just intellectual compassion. It’s sort of like saying that you know all about ice-skating without ever having skated. Not the same.

The pain stored within our memories and emotional blocks is the fuel we use for ascension. The anger, shame, guilt, resentment—all forms of pain—when transmuted in the high heart chakra, become compassion, and compassion is the key element of ascension.

Ascension is holographic. Just like our world is holographic with each person experiencing their own little world inside a larger world, so ascension is the same. We will all experience ascension a little differently. Though there are some universal criteria for ascension, such as emotional clearing, no particular way is the “right” way. What matters is that we all reach the goal regardless of how we do it.

Personal boundaries and agreements are the basis of multidimensionality and ascension. Personal boundaries are self-love in action and agreements are self-empowerment in action. Both are the foundation of any behavior that is to be considered higher dimensional.

For those who are using the Accelerated Process of DNA Recoding, ascension is still not complete. The only difference between those who accelerate and complete the rewiring of their physical forms, and the remainder of humanity is the fact that the rest of the population is recoding their DNA at a much slower pace. Their recoding will be complete at the same time that we are all ready for physical ascension around 2012. So, what I am saying here is that the same tools you use to recode will continue to be used to complete your ascension.

I have completed the Accelerated Recoding Process and have the necessary wiring and multidimensional consciousness needed to ascend, but I am no way ready to ascend. My physical body has a long way to go to get light enough to shift into 5D. I have a lot of clearing left to do. The only reason that I chose to go the accelerated route was to be able to complete the rewiring process, achieve the higher consciousness way of thinking so that I could turn around and help others through the process. The Accelerated DNA Recoding Process was given expressly for that reason. And based on the intensity of that process, there is no other reason to do it. This process was designed for walk-ins, starseeds, and lightworkers who feel they are here to complete a mission as teachers.

Now that we have covered the basics of ascension (there are probably more that I don’t recall right now), we can move on to the areas of ascension that I discussed earlier.

Mental Stability

Pros

As we begin the ascension process one of the first things we begin to notice is the differences between the new way of thinking and being, and the old way. Though the new way has its pitfalls, I definitely prefer it because of one very important thing—it enables me to pull myself out of mental, emotional and physical distress created by victimhood.

Cons

Higher dimensional thinking causes us to lose friends, friends who wish to stay victims. As we move further into ascension, we no longer resonate at the frequency of victimhood. Therefore, our friends and loved ones find no safe harbor in their friendship with us anymore. This is difficult for me even though I understand it. We are no longer mentally in step with the rest of the world.

I have many times over the last 4 years wondered if I was losing my mind. When I look at those I know who are living strictly 3D lives, seemingly unaffected by the changes I am experiencing, I wonder which of us is sane and which isn’t. As the earth continues to separate into two different worlds, one being 3D and the other on the upward spiral to 5D, the idea of differing realities becomes very real to us. I look at my 3D companions and wonder how in the world they can continue to live their lives oblivious to the changes taking place around them. To say they are asleep is an understatement. And though this understanding helps my state of mind, it most definitely does not bring relief and comfort to my heart. I feel the separation acutely.

I hurt from the knowledge that we have less and less in common, less and less to say to one another. We are drifting apart like two ships passing in the night and there is nothing that I am willing to do about it. For to do something about it would be to either let go of my present path and return to a total 3D life that would leave me emotionally and spiritually dead, or try to convince them to awaken and begin the spiritual path so that we can have something in common that is of interest to us both—something that makes both our hearts sing. As you can see, neither is a worthwhile option. The first one hurts me and the second one hurts them and breaks the universal law of free will.

So they tell me I’m crazy and need to check into a mental hospital. I console myself by telling myself that one day, when the things I believe begin to happen on a global scale, they will come around. And until that time comes, I must let go of my desire to be accepted by them.

But sometimes they put forth some pretty convincing arguments, so convincing in fact that I find myself giving myself another good old-fashioned reality check. I ask myself why I am doing this, why I am willing to hold on to nothing in order to attain a goal that I have no guarantee that I will reach, or that when and if I do, it will be all that I was told it would be.

I run through the facts in my head that I have accumulated for just such an occasion. I remember that I was told that it would not always be easy—that the path is narrow, rocky and full of pitfalls. But I also remember those days when I have just come through another lesson and feel that blissful state of peace, or the prosperity that suddenly arrives unannounced but oh so welcome, or the synchronicities that bring some new friend and companion to my doorstep. Just a few of those memories and I am once again able to see and feel that this path, this goal is worth it, and I pull myself together and continue on.

Memory Loss is another one of the challenges we face on the ascension path. Though not caused by the choice to ascend, it nevertheless remains a great obstacle. Our planet is ascending and as part of that process the planetary magnetic grid tends to wobble as the solar flares from the sun hit it.

Our memory is tied to this grid and with each wobble, our memory glitches. These glitches can be large or small, but in either case they can create conflict between individuals. As the amount of memory glitching increases, the emotional imbalance this creates can wreak havoc in our relationships.

I have come to the point where I am grateful if I can remember what happened yesterday. I forget appointments, dates, numbers, agreements with my husband; it’s a real pain in the ass some days. Knowing it is part of planetary ascension is my one consolation.

On the positive side, as we continue to build the energy in our personal consciousness grids (our Light Body or Mer Ka Ba) through achieving higher and higher levels of multidimensionality, our memory will become less and less dependent on the planetary grid.

Known Pitfalls

To me the greatest pitfall of ascension and becoming multidimensional is the communication gap with those remaining asleep in 3D. I can look someone in the eye while talking to them and when it is time for them to respond it is as though they never heard me. I have often had the feeling of being invisible to others. It’s like they don’t see me anymore. I talk to them, but they don’t see me. Very disconcerting! It triggers my feelings of rejection and abandonment. I guess this is good because it gives me the opportunity to clear this issue, but it hurts all the same.

The other aspect of this communication issue is that sometimes when I am in a conversation with someone, they don’t understand what I am saying. This many times leads to arguments and hurt feelings. And it isn’t just with 3D people; it is also with those who are on the ascension path too. Jonathan and I go through this a lot. Sometimes I am the one who is not able to make sense. My words don’t portray my thoughts. They call come out in a jumble of disconcerted sentences. Very frustrating!

With the planetary frequency rising and the resulting dimensional splitting, it makes it harder to communicate with anyone. Perhaps it is also contributing to the rise in crime and emotional/mental imbalance we are seeing all around us and on TV.

Another pitfall is wondering if you are being mind-controlled by the other dimensional beings who are assisting you or those who are your current 3D teachers on the ascension path. The thing is, most techniques and tools used in ascension can also be used to mind control. What can free us can also enslave us. Discernment is critical, but it can make you crazy if you don’t know how to use it. I have found that the way to know which reality is real, whether someone is attempting to mind control me, and what the true intentions are of any teacher, 3D or otherwise, is to ask my Soul to either confirm or deny the information and to tell me why. This tool is one of the Keys of Compassion and it has kept me sane throughout this process. I will be writing more on the subject of mind control in an upcoming article.

Emotional Stability

Pros

I have found that even though I am getting hit with issues almost on a daily basis right now, I am more emotionally stable than I was a year ago. I can thank the higher dimensional tools and understanding for that. Being able to look at the pain that pervades our world, feeling it and having the tools to keep from getting caught up in it so that I experience secondhand victimization, is a real blessing. Just wish I used them more often. I am still triggered by child abuse. I have yet to reach the point in using the tools where I can watch the movie Schindler’s List.

Cons

Ascension takes a heavy toll on our emotions since it necessitates the purging and balancing of both upper and lower chakras. As we bring up fears to be integrated from past and present lives, we experience the often times sheer terror of those fears and this wreaks havoc on our emotions as well as our minds and bodies. I have experienced living 24/7 with fears so great that I want to commit suicide just to escape their intense feelings. They lock up my bowels and make my body hurt wherever the fears are stored. After living with a fear day after day, I find myself emotionally, mentally and physically fatigued until I can use the higher dimensional tools given to me, enough to understand the fear and integrate it. Until my inner child has experienced that fear with me long enough to see that it will not be destroyed by it, she will not release that pain’s trigger point from my body.

Sometimes I don’t get it soon enough or the fear is so intense and overwhelming that I go emotionally numb through depression. Depression becomes a way to escape from the pain because it numbs me emotionally and physically. It’s like hiding in the deepest recesses of a cave and going to sleep. Obviously when this happens, it will take longer to integrate the fear and complete the lesson around the fear because I must be willing to eventually leave the cave to do so.

Vivid Dreams … which reality is real? Vivid dreaming, though exciting can be a real emotional challenge because we sometimes experience dreams so real that we don’t know which reality is which. We sometimes have bleed through from our multidimensional selves in other realities and the emotions from this can be overwhelming and cause us to become caught up in that other world and unable to function in our own.

Known Pitfalls

The most significant pitfall that I have found on my ascension path is using higher consciousness thinking to avoid expressing anger and feeling pain. The tool that I use the most for ascension is The Formula of Compassion, but it is a double-edged sword. My Ego/Inner Child has often tripped me up while using this process. Knowing my intent is the key. Sometimes I think I know my intent just to find out later, through my body most often, that what I thought was my intent was not my intent at all. When this happens, the compassion I acquire is only intellectual compassion, not heart-centered compassion, therefore I do not get a real frequency boost for my ascension process. It is like empty calories.

Jelaila Starr

Let’s Get Real about Ascension! Part 2

Supplemental Resources

DNA Recoding Process Overview

Multidimensional Keys of Compassion

Readers Comments

“I read your articles regarding Lets get real about Ascension. They were extremely validating, and I now have a complete understanding. My biggest concern was that I was alone and failing. I am going into the hospital to get stabilized, I’m really weak. After this, I will begin my own healing process. Jelaila, you have the only material out there that is truthful, and fills in the gaps for the next 11 years. Your work is such a blessing. Everything you read is so glorious, and that is what I expected. Not without a complete healing and a lot of inner work will we enjoy the 5th. Much Love & Light.” Susan

“I have just finished reading Lets Get Real About Ascension parts 1 and 2. I thank you so much for writing that! So much in there I can identify with, and it makes me realise that I have been ascending for some time, and not been totally aware of it! The parts about letting go of friendships of the people of the 3rd-d is quite what I am going through at the moment … It is sad, and frustrating, but I have no intentions of staying there, when I belong elsewhere … I wish I could get through to some of these 3rd-d friends, and family, but I know that the time is not right for them … I only talk to those who come to me, and ask questions, only then, will I provide some of the answers/ tools for them. This is, in many ways such a magical time for me, and although, yes, there are many pitfalls, I feel in my heart, and very soul that I am moving forward, with much more vigor than ever before … My heart sings at what I am now doing … Although I am becoming more of an oddity to those around me, I am becoming more unto me … and that, is, in the end, all that counts!! God bless you with Light & Love.” Meredith

Are we ascending? And if so, what are the signs? Who’s helping us, and who’s not? These are questions many people are asking these days.

So are we ascending? I would say yes. How do we know? Simple, just look at the many predictions that have not come true. By now we should have had a lot more earthquakes, and California should have been devastated by a major earthquake. Comet Lee, the comet named the “King of Terror” by Nostradamos was supposed to wreak havoc on earth, but once again, it came and went without much ado.

The fact that predictions are not coming true, are the signs that we are ascending. Unfortunately those who make the predictions are taking some flack for this. I would hope that we would all understand that what they saw was accurate, and would have come true had we needed those events to assist us in our ascension by providing more catalysts for clearing and change. But, it seems that we have not needed them. There appears to be enough people doing their emotional clearing for the earth to not have to do it for us.

Since our emotional bodies collectively make up the emotional body of the planet, the more we clear the less Mother Earth has to do. And when she does it manifests as earthquakes, volcanoes, floods, hurricanes, tornadoes etc. That is not to say that these things aren’t happening; they are. But they are not much more than we have had in the past. Yet I must confess that there are times when I wish for more earth changes to occur because I get into fear that without them people will not wake up. But, once again, I must tell myself that there will be enough people waking up to finish the ascension, and the amount of earth changes that are and will occur will be the perfect amount to complete the job. Do you get these kinds of fears too? Am I alone in feeling this way?

Another sign that we are ascending are the effects we are experiencing living in two dimensions (3D & 4D) at once. Many people are experiencing heightened emotions, seeing entities in their peripheral vision, memory loss, and weight gain due to fears coming up to be released. Though difficult to deal with, these symptoms are good because they let us know that life as we knew it (living in 3D alone) is over and we have moved into a new dimension.

The good news is that once we clear our emotional and physical bodies so that our bodily frequency matches that of the dimensional frequency in which we now exist, these symptoms will begin to disappear. I am just thankful that it is happening at a slow enough pace to give us time to adjust. Those of you who are utilizing the Accelerated DNA Recoding Process will find your lives evening out much more quickly than those moving along at the planetary pace. You are in essence, a few steps ahead.

Now on to the next question. Many people have been asking me about the Zeta’s role in all this. My answer to this point is that everyone’s role including the Zeta’s has a value. But now I see that more clarity could help so here is the 9D Council’s perspective on the Zetas. Devin will be channeling this. Here goes.

Greetings Beloved Ones,

As many of you have come to know, we are proponents of integration. The individuals playing the roles of Zetas cannot be lumped all together. From our viewpoint there are three distinct roles these individuals are experiencing at this time. But before we share them with you, I feel that you would benefit from knowing the origin of the Zeta form.

The Zeta form was first created by the Nibiruans. They are a cross between the Reptilians, Humans, and in some cases, Insectillians. The Zeta form was created for the purpose of providing individuals who could man orbiting space stations for extended periods of time. The fact that they are devoid of emotional bodies makes them especially suitable for extended periods in space. They were in essence created as androids. In the ancient records of your planet, you identified them as the Igigi or Watchers.

There are several groups of these beings that have evolved and begun to acquire an emotional body. We encourage this in all races. Unfortunately, some of this advancement has been accomplished at the expense of humans since humans alone of all races carrying the genetic coding for compassion, which is essential to emotional maturity and spiritual evolution. This we do not encourage, and as an elder council we can only provide guidance when asked. To intervene would be a breach of free will.

But we can inform you as to how to take this in stride and use it as a catalyst for your own spiritual evolution. The Zeta’s choices are not uncommon among races created first as androids, but there is certainly a better way, and other races created in this manner have opted for that way.

Now in regards to the three Zetas roles, there are those who are working with the group of 4D Reptilians, formerly under Marduk’s command, who are working to take overt control of earth. They have been promised, by their overlords all the human genes needed to attain an emotional body. Unfortunately they will be disappointed, as this form of “abducting” genes will severely delay their progress. Only by entering into a cooperative program of beneficial exchange with humans can these androids ever hope to attain the spiritual technology (genes) that will enable them to reproduce as a race on their own, and achieve spiritual ascension of their race.

There is another group of Zetas that have evolved through beneficial exchange with humans and these individuals have taken on the task of informing the people of earth of the hidden agenda of their Zeta brothers and sisters. They understand that if the universe is to ever have peace then we must all work together. Their reward will be to acquire full emotional bodies to match their superb technological abilities. It gives us great joy knowing that they are working for the betterment of all races.

The third group are those who believe, based on past experience, that mankind will not ascend. Since they do not have fully developed emotional bodies, and they are not open to the higher dimension as a result of not having emotional bodies that can access these realms, they feel they can help the most by warning mankind of the impending doom that he faces. Their stance is to prepare mankind for the worst. Many in this group are also talking about a mass evacuation of the planet. They do not have the emotional capacity to comprehend that emotional clearing can and is the path to ascension. They are not necessarily evil, and in fact, they believe that they are helping.

In all three cases, we ask that you view these individuals from the higher perspective of compassion. In each there is a value, in each, an opportunity for discernment. Whether they are playing very dark roles for your spiritual evolution, or playing what you call light roles, they are above all, beings in service to us all and they too want the opportunity to spiritually evolve.

With this I will close. Please remember that when we find the value in the things that we call dark, we reach integration, and compassion, and evolve just a little more.

In service to you,
Devin, Head of the 9D Nibiruan Council

So there you have it. Please use the above information to determine which group or groups of Zetas you are encountering. And please, see them all from the higher perspective. They like many other android races, and there are a lot in this universe, are struggling to find a way to evolve. We are more fortunate because we are humans and therefore, have emotional bodies. They have so much further to go.

The Zetas figure heavily in our ascension process. They have helped and they have hindered. If we can understand their choices as choices we might have made if the situation were reversed, then we can find compassion and move that much closer to our goal of ascension.

I hope this message has been of some help to you. In these days of confusion and chaos, hearing a different perspective can sometimes bring the clarity that makes it easier to cope. As always, use discernment when viewing this and any other information that comes your way. Accept only the messages that feel right in your heart.

Blessings my friends,
Jelaila Starr

Written November, 1999